Its been a while, seven months in fact. I've thrown out my big crowd, settled in for a lesser one and kept to myself all this while even when you were all desperately tying to reach out to me. I'm sorry.
I dint know how I ever could have thought that being in a relationship...a 'serious' relations...made people change the way I did. I thought I was doing it for the better, I obviously was doing it for the worse.
I hurt a lot of the people who made me who I am today, I dint listen to their words of caution and ended up spending most of those seven months crying in the privacy of my bedroom. I dint have anybody to tun to. And when he started treating me like shit, I sincerely felt this was what I deserved for not holding on to my friendships a little tighter.
I know, obviously, I wont get them all back...the friendships I cherish sooo deeply, but I beg you all to reconsider. I was merely side-tracked, a lesson well learnt but I had to go through this. Its honestly made me a better person as a whole...given me time to slow down and seriously think about what I want in life.
One thing is for sure. I want my friends back, and I wouldn't go through with all of this again- even if he was the last dick standing on earth.
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