Dear Pip,
I cant believe your gone.
Seriously, I just saw you about two weeks ago and suddenly I get a call Sunday Morning and they can't find you anywhere! I'm in between shocked and denial, don't want to let my heart give up on you too fast, but I know it was always your wish that we live on, move on, go on like always.
It would be selfish of me to think that I'm the only one deeply hurt, your best friend, my best friend...the rest of the Kaaplae and Kataaza Crew is hurting too...but what about your siblings? I know they feel lost in all this, your young wife- your whole life that was going to fold ahead of you...its all come to an end. A sad and early end that's left the rest of us still here on earth unsatisfied and full of sorrow.
Pip, can you see us from where you are? Can you read our thoughts and understand how much we miss you? Its barely been 48 hours but our lives are all messed up. Search parties are out on the lake, everyone is aware. The news spread so fast.
I'm scared of funerals, you know that. I may not be able to muster up the courage to cry in front of all those people, but that don't mean that I'm not torn up inside...you were my brother- unlike the others we had a seriously special bond. I took your word for everything, and you took mine. We understood eachother, filled in for others and comforted ourselves in our own special way.
First you moved to South Africa and our connection was temporally lost. But you called me, kept in touch with me and always seemed to pop up at the right times. Your arrival home was the best thing I had heard in weeks. Just after a horrible relationship, having you in the country was really God sent.
I wish I hadn't begged you to come home. I wish I would have called you the day before and asked you not to go. I wish we had caught up. I wish, I wish, I wish. I wish this could be undone. I wish there was a way. A way to reverse all this.
Why Pip? Why now? Why soooo young?
Its not fair, you life was just opening up. But I have nobody to blame but fate. Fate did this. Its all her fault. But I know you're in a better place. I know you're watching over us. I know, I know, I know you never would have wanted me or anyone else to mope about.
I promise I'll carry on your name. I wont let this all disappear. I will always love you, you're
family to me and I won't, I repeat I wont let you go in vain. I'll try my best to pitch in where I can, I want to meet your siblings and share their loss. I will take care of your wife, comfort her and be there always. I'll keep the Kaapale name going strong, despite the fact that you're gone- I wont let you spirit die.
I will wait for you in my dreams to talk to me. I will look forward to seeking out signs that you're around. I will always keep you in my prayers. I will continue to move forward. Won't be weak, I wont. I will stay strong, and help those who need it.
Above everything, I will miss you.
As we always used to say- nkwagala,
-Baby Kaapale-
I cant believe your gone.
Seriously, I just saw you about two weeks ago and suddenly I get a call Sunday Morning and they can't find you anywhere! I'm in between shocked and denial, don't want to let my heart give up on you too fast, but I know it was always your wish that we live on, move on, go on like always.
It would be selfish of me to think that I'm the only one deeply hurt, your best friend, my best friend...the rest of the Kaaplae and Kataaza Crew is hurting too...but what about your siblings? I know they feel lost in all this, your young wife- your whole life that was going to fold ahead of you...its all come to an end. A sad and early end that's left the rest of us still here on earth unsatisfied and full of sorrow.
Pip, can you see us from where you are? Can you read our thoughts and understand how much we miss you? Its barely been 48 hours but our lives are all messed up. Search parties are out on the lake, everyone is aware. The news spread so fast.
I'm scared of funerals, you know that. I may not be able to muster up the courage to cry in front of all those people, but that don't mean that I'm not torn up inside...you were my brother- unlike the others we had a seriously special bond. I took your word for everything, and you took mine. We understood eachother, filled in for others and comforted ourselves in our own special way.
First you moved to South Africa and our connection was temporally lost. But you called me, kept in touch with me and always seemed to pop up at the right times. Your arrival home was the best thing I had heard in weeks. Just after a horrible relationship, having you in the country was really God sent.
I wish I hadn't begged you to come home. I wish I would have called you the day before and asked you not to go. I wish we had caught up. I wish, I wish, I wish. I wish this could be undone. I wish there was a way. A way to reverse all this.
Why Pip? Why now? Why soooo young?
Its not fair, you life was just opening up. But I have nobody to blame but fate. Fate did this. Its all her fault. But I know you're in a better place. I know you're watching over us. I know, I know, I know you never would have wanted me or anyone else to mope about.
I promise I'll carry on your name. I wont let this all disappear. I will always love you, you're
family to me and I won't, I repeat I wont let you go in vain. I'll try my best to pitch in where I can, I want to meet your siblings and share their loss. I will take care of your wife, comfort her and be there always. I'll keep the Kaapale name going strong, despite the fact that you're gone- I wont let you spirit die.I will wait for you in my dreams to talk to me. I will look forward to seeking out signs that you're around. I will always keep you in my prayers. I will continue to move forward. Won't be weak, I wont. I will stay strong, and help those who need it.
Above everything, I will miss you.
As we always used to say- nkwagala,
-Baby Kaapale-
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i dont believe this..:('^')
ReplyDeletewe getting ready for their welcome party i was.. its hard to lose so many people in the same time.
i was preparing for him ,eric's party.. but i didnt make it cos i lost a relative in rwanda, i called phillip n he told me the party is in the village little did i know that it was nw afuneral...
this hurts, i thought i couldnt make it to a party bcos my own auntie died yet un aware that my friend has left for another life..
i cant say "i understand wat his wife is going through cos we all miss him in away.. little angels be wit you bro.
Medrine...thanks for being a friend Phillo.
But i hate the way i have found out,..
i dont believe this..:('^')
ReplyDeletewe getting ready for their welcome party i was.. its hard to lose so many people in the same time.
i was preparing for him ,eric's party.. but i didnt make it cos i lost a relative in rwanda, i called phillip n he told me the party is in the village little did i know that it was nw afuneral...
this hurts, i thought i couldnt make it to a party bcos my own auntie died yet un aware that my friend has left for another life..
i cant say "i understand wat his wife is going through cos we all miss him in away.. little angels be wit you bro.
Medrine...thanks for being a friend Phillo.
But i hate the way i have found out,..
i dont believe this..:('^')
ReplyDeletewe getting ready for their welcome party i was.. its hard to lose so many people in the same time.
i was preparing for him ,eric's party.. but i didnt make it cos i lost a relative in rwanda, i called phillip n he told me the party is in the village little did i know that it was nw afuneral...
this hurts, i thought i couldnt make it to a party bcos my own auntie died yet un aware that my friend has left for another life..
i cant say "i understand wat his wife is going through cos we all miss him in away.. little angels be wit you bro.
Medrine...thanks for being a friend Phillo.
But i hate the way i have found out,..
Cant believe my dear brother you are gone. After a long absence from Uganda came back and got to know you better. Left again which i should not have done but we soon got in touch and you were planning to come and see me in London. Why my dear brother have you left me so soon? You will always be apart of me till we meet again. love always Nicholas Karamagi (England, U.K)
ReplyDeleteSorry am intruding but i must
ReplyDeletesay this has really re-opened the old wound Philip left in my heart.
We was in high skool 2getha. Pip in form 4 me in form 6 but we got along so well some seniors werent amused.
Pip called me on his return to Uganda to drink beer at 9am and i cldnt go as i was working.Actually i called him a fool. Didnt know he was calling me for a farewell drink-up.
saturde he goes for the fatefull boat ride and we r to meet that nyt, we didnt. His fon was off and next thing i know he's gone forever.
All i can say is Philip is not gone. The fact that am thinking about him months after his death, he will always stay in our hearts and one day we shall see that smile again.
thanx for allowing me post on your blog. ma'bad but we all do it for Pip.
Am off to Muhangi's in Bugolobi to have one Nile special in his memory. Yu never know i may find him there already started as it was then.